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Bringin' sexy back... [26 Jun 2009|03:56pm]
[ mood | workin' hard for the money ]

So multiple people have informed me that they enjoy this journal and that I should start it up again, and so I'm going to.

I'm currently at work answering phones, slaving myself to people who would spend more on a necklace than I have in my college account. It's the sort of thing that makes me want to punch a baby, but at least I have internet access to entertain me. Tonight my mother will be working as well. We've never worked together before.... should be interesting. And by interesting, I of course mean it will be a trainwreck.

...Mmmm.... trainwreck...

I haven't even been on LJ in the longest, even the friend's page and such, so anyone around who's still active out here holla at your girl yo.

I took a brief look at the friends page and saw littlekuriboh's post with episode 41 of YGOTAS. The last episode I remember was like... 23.

Well I guess I know what I'm doing for the rest of the day....  =)

2 siblings | thicker than blood

A conversation between my boyfriend and myself... [25 Jun 2009|08:48pm]
[ mood | touched ]

About the girls at the Bunny Ranch in Nevada....

Me: I was looking at the chicks at the bunny ranch. I like "Bunny Love".
Jeremy: She's pretty hot. She's famous, you know.
Me: She deserves it. I wish I could tap that ass on every surface of this planet...
Jeremy: And the moon. She is that hot... she's space hot.

Thank you Jeremy.

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Oh lord.. [20 Jul 2008|12:58am]

My mother just walked up to me.  She pulled her pants out with her thumb to reveal... a bag of sunflower seeds.

She had a bag of sunflower seeds in her pants. Then she laughed hysterically and walked off.

Honestly, why do I have to live with this??

1 sibling | thicker than blood

Two observations... [12 Jul 2008|09:49pm]
1) Im convinced Splish Splash is the number one, leading cause of racism.
2) Beavers are the world's most forgotten animal.
3 siblings | thicker than blood

I have made a conscious decision... [29 Apr 2008|03:20am]
[ mood | depressed ]

to completely cut myself off from society. Nothing I do to try to get myself to be normal will ever work and I simply give up. It's becoming clear to me that the people I live with here simply tolerate me and don't see me as a significant figure in their lives. Rather than have my world revolve around them unrequitedly, I have decided to isolate myself and stop caring entirely in an effort to protect myself. I'm the only person I'll ever have, which is just fine, because I'm the only person I'll ever need. I have such little expectations for everyone in my life right now, it's sad.

So now... let's play the "see how long it will take everyone to notice my completely unwarranted, sudden change in behavior" game.

I'll probably lose. I always do.

9 siblings | thicker than blood

Truly experiencing death for the first time... [30 Jan 2008|09:18pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

My uncle died. He hung himself in the basement. His fifteen year old son found him.

I find it difficult to handle this.

The death is something I can handle. I cried, but I can move on. I'm sad, but I can keep living.

What I find absolutely unbearable is looking at the sad faces of everyone he left behind. His sons, my father, my grandmother, his wife. What am I supposed to say to them? I can't say anything without it sounding like a desperate attempt to just get looking into their eyes out of the way. I can't even imagine how they feel.

My father was on the phone with my crying. All he could say was "I lost my baby brother". My mother can't make sense of things, and my sister is clearly desperate to be able to understand how we feel. I don't expect her to feel like we do - he wasn't her family after all. She barely knew him.

i don't want to go to the funeral or burial not because I don't care, but because I would rather deal with death by myself. I don't want to think about it, I don't want to talk about it. And I'm not going to be able to handle sitting in a room where my entire family is crying around another loved one in a casket. I can't handle that. I couldn't handle being in the computer room when LeeAnn died and I won't be able to handle this.

I'm glad I was never successful in my suicidal attempts when I was younger. I've never been more glad of that in my entire life. I wish he could've seen that.

4 siblings | thicker than blood

Things to do in the new year... [04 Jan 2008|02:20am]
[ mood | amused ]

- Go to a hookah bar
- Go to an oxygen bar
- Get my tongue pierced
- Take a yoga class
- Go to a strip club
- Go to a comedy club
- Try nair
- Try Crest "Whitestrips"
- Will myself to eat fish at least once
- Read a Nietzche book every month
Dress like an actual female
- Train myself to do a split 
+ Send something into PostSecret

There's a lot more I'd like to do, but I think this is a good start.
I'll keep adding more as they come to me...

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Claire: "Thank you for helping me survive." [26 Dec 2007|08:03pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

I had this really wierd dream last night where I was married to Patton Oswalt. ???????  Sure, he's awesome, but I have no clue where that came from.

Today I saw Sweeney Todd with claire lia and liz. Awesome movie - I totally recommend it. As long as You don't hate musicals... or blood...

Btw, here's that hammer I got for christmas:

Merry christmas everyone! 

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=( [17 Nov 2007|09:05pm]
I'm very upset about having to let my lower bellytbutton piercing close. I went through a lot of pain for it and I worked my ass off to heal the infection. All for what? To have to let it close anyway because the piercer was a MORON and made the piercing too shallow?!?!? Yes. I am very angry. There goes $50 and hell of a lot of effort.

At least I got to see Vanessa today  =)! 
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Changes [13 Nov 2007|12:11am]
[ mood | angry ]

So Nelson was cheating on Jen. Knowing her, she flipped out on him, but i only know what I do from mom. Not sure who's getting the baby or the apartment or the car or w/e, but things certainly are gonna be changing.

Thanksgiving's gonna be wierd. 

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All I want for christmas is.... [08 Nov 2007|01:20am]
[ mood | apathetic ]

The entire works of Fredrich Nietzsche. All 12 of them. One for every day of Christmas. And I want a Pea Coat. But I don't want to admit to my parents that I actually want something for christmas, so I think I'll get the Pea Coat myself next weekend and then I'll buy and read one Nietzsche book per month starting January next year...

Why do I make such simple things so damn complicated?

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So my fish tried to commit suicide... [31 Oct 2007|01:26am]
[ mood | shocked ]

Lauren, Anam (my roomate and suitemate, respectively), and I were on our way out the door to go to eat when Lauren said one of my fish was missing. Bored, she counted them while waiting for me to finish getting my shoes on. Of course I thought she was just being retarded, but after standing there for about 5 minutes looking in the tank, I realized there really only were 6 (as opposed to the 7 that are usually in there). At this point I figured that one had taken advantage of the fact that I left the top open and jumped out like a f*cking moron, so we start looking around for it's body. I pulled out my desk - it's not back there. I pull out my dresser - it's not underneath. Finally, we pull the tank tank out a little and find him in the tiny space between the back of the desk and the tank. Lauren screamed (she saw him first). Then anam pushed her out of the way, and screamed. Then I pushed them both out of the way to pick of the body for a proper flushing burial.

Now, this process might sound long to you... and it WAS. We were seriously looking for that fish for about 7 minutes and lord knows how long ago it had jumped out. So imagine my surprise when the damn thing JUMPED as soon as I touched it. So now we're all screaming at which i now believe is a fish that is a descendent of Jesus' fish, and I quickly pick it up and throw it back in the tank. The damn thing is alive an well.


btw - for all of you that take my facebook quiz, read ALL the answer choices to the high school question. I guarantee you that you'll see a better answer...    =]

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So I've been thinking... [24 Oct 2007|01:40am]
[ mood | curious ]

A while ago I asked a bffer of mine what about me she most disliked. Now, I could list a hundred things she could have said, but she actually said that the only thing abt me that bothered her was that my emotions are too severe, like how I get really upset over stupid things. It was wierd to hear something I never thought about be someone else's only problem with me...

SOOOO, my question to you all is:   Name the one biggest thing about me that you dislike.
And pls be honest. I made comments anonymous and I wont be emailed them, so I'll see just what everyone else sees. =)

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HAHA woops... [06 Oct 2007|10:54pm]
[ mood | content ]

So my parents moved furniture around in my room and found shotglass chess. And my old diary. You know, the one Lia used to read everytime she came over?


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=P [03 Oct 2007|12:54am]
[ mood | sick ]

Apparently my attempt to eat healthier has been seriously working. I ate total crap today (greasy-ass chicken fingers, half a philly cheese steak, and popcorn during House) and it made me feel sooo horrible and my stomach felt so heavy. Im not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing, but at least I'm getting better at eating.

House makes my Tuesdays wonderful. Kumar makes my life wonderful. House + Kumar? Osnappp, I'm in heaven.

I had a cigarette today, something I've been wanting for a while. It was nice, but then I had a stomach ache. But maybe that was just because of the crappy eating? I'll try again tomorrow to test this theory.

On that note, I have a massive chemistry textbook to read. bai.   ;P

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Let's Get it Started.... [06 Sep 2007|12:15am]
[ mood | excited ]

So today's classes were okay. I ALMOST have a class with Samantha Chiarello. We take WRT 101 at the same time in classrooms next to eachother. So every other day I'll see her. Talk about wierd. But she's better off, because our teacher looks, acts, and talks JUST like Cashette. I really want to strangle her, even though she seems completely professional and nice.

And then Chem 131 is taught in a lecture hall with 600 other students. It's got a goddamn BALCONY to fit the other half. And the teacher is this adorable little German old man with the thickest accent ever. Even though it's chem, I'm looking forward to just hearing him talk.

Then later I finally made party friends! My roommate Lauren, Suitemate Anam, and myself decided to get to know the people who like like 2 feet away from us (since we haven't really talked to anyone on our floor, and they invited us over at the floor meeting) and it was a bunch of hot rocker guys with guitars, amps, beer, vodka, and a hooka. Some other girl was smoking the hooka, but there was definately more than tabacco in it. We're gonna have a party soon, so I'm happy  =D   Plus, they play awesome music. Like... really awesome.

I think I've procrastinated enough. I'm gonna do Calc hmwk now   ;-;

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w00h00! C0LL3G3! [04 Sep 2007|08:02pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

College is fun so far. I don't really know anyone except my awesome roommate Lauren, but I think getting to know some people will get easier now that classes have started and people are forced to spend a copious amount of time near me.  =D

My dorm kicks your ass. End of story. It's not up for debate.

Now I just need to hope that I don't flunk out   =)

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Sayonara, Adios, Salut, Auf Wiedersehen, Namaskaram, Slán Agaibh, Valete, Do Svidanja, Adyos Po... [31 Aug 2007|11:50pm]
[ mood | sad ]


It's hard convincing myself that it's not just for a week or two. More so than I thought it would be.

It hasn't sunk in that it'll be three months before I sleep in my bed again. Three months until I sit right where I am right now.  Three months until I can again stumble down my bedstairs at noon only to spend what little of the day remains reclusively in the living room recliner online. Three months until I can again get annoyed by a little hungry cat and then trip over him ten times on my way to feed him because he's so stupid. I feel the worst for him - he cries when I leave to go to the store until I come back, and I can't help but wonder how long he'll cry before he realizes that I'm not coming back this time. It breaks my heart to even think about it.

How strange. The only thing that I will honestly cry over tomorrow is leaving my cat. And this house. I feel so attatched to this house and I don't want to leave, but I suppose that's the price I have to pay for never going out.

God, this sucks.

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:/ [31 Aug 2007|01:51am]
[ mood | touched ]

I got a cavity filled today, which is always a big deal for me because I can't get the novacaine. But it wasn't nearly as bad as I was afraid it would be, and I was in and out in no time.   :P

Tomorrow we're having tacos. It'll may very well be the last time I eat my mom's tacos. Which has only made me painfully realize that I'm leaving.

Oh well. Maybe I can get her to make them whenever I come home  :D

Here's a really sad clip of Jon Stewart talking on the show on September 13, 2001.

I'm gonna go waste more of my last moments here reading fanficion now.

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Tis a sad day... [29 Aug 2007|08:29pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

So apparently, Mr. Muffincake is getting married....



I lost my chance. Though I am seriously considering crashing the wedding. With Markey. I can refrain from objection during the ceremony, but I need to make sure she's good enough for him.

.........  :(

::GASP:: maybe I can strip at his bachelor party!!!!!!

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